today 27 of feb... the second day after u saying break up with me.... my mood my thinking is still cant stopp think of yesterday wat beeen happen. why it will happen. been cant sleep for hole night thinking the reason and how to save back. at the end i just like getting no answer.. althought i very miss u and got many think wanna tell u. tell u i know my wrong that i did last time and i won repeat again. tell u now i been understnad and believe love really need trust...
i don think u know that. today also my birthday. is yang li zheng yua chu si shi. i down hole day but i din not really show on my face. i don wan my parents know that i got problem. trying to smile with them act like i am normal. but in the deepest of my heart is really so xin ku.. full of question. wat should i do now. wat will happen if i done something. even i din do anything right now, izit i will regreat next time. just now my cousin asking me how your gf celebrate with u. i nearly don know should say wat. izit say she break with me the. i won say that.
however. maybe the title of this blog is the time to change..
the daily life without your accompany geting forever

early in the morning just around 9 something... a message make me stop doing my think and just stare at the message.. something that i never think before suddenly appear to me. before that i know we have some problem but din reallly think that will grow until this stage. everything really just come very suddenly. don know should how descrip my feeling and mood after seeing that message..
last time i will say this is because distance problem. but now.. after this, i won think about that anymore. any thing happen is between u and me. non of distance problem. the relationship only is the important. love is just need a trust. before that i din do that so only will chage to now this stage.
but now, everything been too late. too late......

23/2/2010

one week and one day after bii back to camp...dear feel so miss you...this few day back from bandung beening wait for bii to call me. but wait everyday also din hear bii call me also. maybe bii are busy gua. bii, how is your flying fox leasson oh?? and yesterday your M16 class few how??? get to learn many thing?? deaar always also think of bii, also miss my bii so so much... dear so hope bii call dear laa....
beside that, that day is not dear don wan reply bii, iss because dear din bring 012 go indonesia. than on saturday, dear use up all my credit so cant reply bii... during at bandung..dear everyday also finding anything so that can present to my belove bii. althougt there got many thing can buy. but dear don know bii like which one lei.. choose the still scared bii you don like oh. so really so hard to make up the mind. at the end dear also get to brought bii a present. hope that bii will like it lo... beside that. Bii... where is dear de birthday present lei??? bii still din celebrate with dear yet lei...
when bii back dear wan bii celebrate with dear...dear don care.... hehee.... miss you.. bii....
MUACKzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

6/2/2010

bii....when bii call your family de oh??? why bii din call dear de.... when 6 something..bii de sis got call dear...ask me at where.. and izit i drive car go or sit bus go kuala kedah.. than dear got ask your sis when bii call back oh..but your sis din ans me... bii... bii izit don like dear one person go visit bii???? bii izit got anthing that keep in your heart oh... why dear feel like this time wat thing bii also like don wan tell dear..dear really hope that my feeling is wrong...baby...
than after few minutes... your sis call dear again.... your sis ask me izit free tonight..bii de father wan belanja dear eat oh..your sis say...but dear cant go....cause dear need to go to my grandfather de bro de thing...need to go there have a pray...bii... dear really very scared.. ddear de mind really just full of question... izit between us beening happen any problem?? izit dear think too much???or Is dear sensitive.... bii..... Bii.... baby dear miss you....

6/2/2010

early in the morning...
7.15am
dear been wake up....
get to wash my face and clean and pack all my cloth...
than when 8am
dear been check out the room and
going to the town....
bii
before the hole night...
dear just thinking wan to buy wat thing for bii lei
don know she wan to eat wat lei???
dear really thinking of so many thing
but your friends tell me bii wanna eat shusi...
but dear find hole the town of langkawi...
dear find two round jor...
also cant get....
just can wait bii back tpg
dear only tread bii eat...
therefor..
dear think until no the ho..
dear suddenly think off at jetty got starbuck..
so ma rush go there buy a
caremel hot chocolate
chocolate chip ice blanded
a blue montain cheese cake
and a chicken pie lo...
than
finish buy the....
been rush to bii de camp lo....

5/2/2010

today...

just got one aim
that is alone cannot feel scared cannot feel lonely
going Langkawi to give her a surprise
i just got one aim that is can see her...
early in the morning
9.00am
i siting express bus go to butterworth,
i reach at 10.05am,
dear still waiting bii to message me...
when just reach the bus station...
dear been get to buy the ticket to alor setar...
the bus will departure at 11.00am
hole the way in my mind just thinking
wat is the reaction will bii do when saw dear lei???
really full of waiting..
than..
around 12pm dear been reach alor setar
and sit taxis go to kuala kedah jetty..
and get to buy 1.30pm de ferry ticket....
that time really feel so bored and lonely...
but maybe because gt aim....
hope to see my bii soon...
so just one person sitting at jetty
wait for the time to arrive lo
bii..
this really the first time dear go travel alone...
before that dear also din try before..
this time trip really just aim to meet with my bii
nothing much...
dear really so miss you....

Tomorrow....tomorrow is our 3rd Month the.. bii.. but also the first time bii not beside dear celebrate with dear.. say fast not fast, say long not long.. we been together 3 month the.... the fake make us meet each other.... than be couple until now...although bii now not beside dear.... but dear still din change.. still keeping my promise.....dear really so miss you... although dear are busy....

I love you bii...